Motifs
There are often many things that I'd like to say. Ideas and thoughts that flit about through my head. Many of them songs from yesteryears repeating again. Motifs from the symphony of our lives that recur. (Imagery from "Unbearable Lightness of Being" by Milan Kundera)
Sometimes I wonder if I've written about these thoughts here before, because I think these thoughts so often, that they've become more familiar to me than my own hands, and it seems to be that surely I've shared them before. And yet, it might turn out that I have not. Other times, I Know I have talked about an idea, an image, a motif - and if you root around in my archives from other blogs and journals, you'd see them all... like the modus operandi of a serial killer. And though I would hate to be repetitive, I can't help but return over and over again to the same ideas, because I feel so strongly about them, or they so strongly influence or even form the framework of how I see life, that to talk about anything else, would be to misrepresent the "I" at that moment in time.
Sometimes I wonder if I've written about these thoughts here before, because I think these thoughts so often, that they've become more familiar to me than my own hands, and it seems to be that surely I've shared them before. And yet, it might turn out that I have not. Other times, I Know I have talked about an idea, an image, a motif - and if you root around in my archives from other blogs and journals, you'd see them all... like the modus operandi of a serial killer. And though I would hate to be repetitive, I can't help but return over and over again to the same ideas, because I feel so strongly about them, or they so strongly influence or even form the framework of how I see life, that to talk about anything else, would be to misrepresent the "I" at that moment in time.
2 Comments:
I think there's something comforting about motifs, patterns in our lives. And I think it's comforting that we'll never really be able to put a finger down on why this is so.
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Anonymous, at 6:27 AM
Sometimes I can actually put my finger to the factors that have led to these recurring motifs in my life. Theoretically, knowing the root of the matter allows you to target it and neutralise the effect. And as human beings, we are in a constant process of creation - we can create our own reality by simply Deciding to change, or Choosing our own reality.
Yet I have not been able to completely break free of experiences that have shaped my life. Most of the time I feel like a broken old record cranking out the same tune.
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e*, at 12:06 AM
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